The Hole...

A high school parade just went by my house...

Fri, 16 Oct 2009 15:57:55 GMT

No shittin! Wish I got pictures. D:

Small/short update today.
- I got my shit done for gaia
- Made about 100K+, maybe even 150K so far. (I've been buying Halloween shit so I've failed to keep track.)
- I'm starting to get over Kai's kidnapping, letting him out for longer and longer each night.
- Kai is doing well. :D
- We're behind in our Real Life Halloween plans but hey, no one was counting on the cat getting kidnapped and coming home battered.
- Got nothing done for LJ yet. Probably never will.
- Will be going out today for the first time in weeks. X_x; Damn Halloween shopping.
- Aside from a few set backs/mysterious illnesses, my health has been 95% optimal. :D
- Got a cavern of a cavity though that will probably require a root canal/tooth yankage. X_x
- Getting an appointment with medical people WHEN YOU NEED IT is downright impossible. (Unless you're rich. D: )
- Got addicted to a new song/AMV which I suggest you get addicted to, too! XD
- Annnnd... that's it at the top of my brain.

Watch. I'll probably post this and remember something afterward. XD Later all!

I'm going to kill that fucking cat...

Thu, 01 Oct 2009 04:53:36 GMT

10hrs, people. TEN, LONG, GRUELING hours out there, going door to door, handing out fliers, putting up posters, talking/meeting strangers and FOR WHAT? To have the little fucker show up at the door. XD

*collapses in defeat* I -knew- this would happen. I knew how it would turn out from the beginning.
When I got home yesterday I knew bad things were going to happen with Kai
When I was making/putting up posters, filling out online forms, I had this feeling I was doing it all for not.
Today that feeling got even STRONGER. I knew I was wasting my god damn time with it all but still I kept putting shit up.

*heavy sigh* I'm... a blank slate at this point. I don't know what to feel. I've gone through the five stages of grief, death and mother-in-law-visitations 12 times over, I've had to put on a fake smile and ask soulless, heartless people to look out for this damn cat, only to have paranoid people slam doors in my face, give me half assed responses, neglect to open the door even though they're home and cheesy grins along the whole, damn, way...

*DEAD* .... and for someone with like, ZERO social skills, that's a challenge.

P.S. I just got word from mother that the posters all along Kingswood were taken down... WTF?
Kai appears and they were CUT down? Why?
This... this is weird but earlier tonight I saw a woman putting up Raccoon Evict posters and she put one underneath ours and according to mom, that poster is gone too. Which makes me wonder if someone on that block hates posters, "dirtying up" their little section of the woods. I mean, that whole neighborhood was creepy and alien... and I've always lived right next to it! Everyone either has a fucking child or is old and the only young adults without any meatsacks are teenagers and those were very few in number for a place with so many baby boomers... *Shudder* Creepy.

Anyway, it's left me feeling pretty victimized. I worked my ASS off putting up ALL those posters and now some schmuck has ~~taken~~CUT them down on me? Talk about all that work for nothing. :(

But I am suspicious of TIGGERS OWNER. Yes, that cunt is vindictive enough to pull that stunt and you know, she's the ONLY house I skipped because I didn't think she'd listen to me.

I think the only way to solve this is to put up posters again and watch a few of them via camera or whatever and see if someone takes them down.

...Kai is MISSING....

Wed, 30 Sep 2009 05:38:02 GMT

Kai's been missing for... oh it's got to be 36-38hrs by now. Last time I saw him was around 3PM yesterday when I let him out. I knew a storm was coming but my mind was preoccupied with my doctors visit at the (now normal-hours) clinic.

I got home around six and came home to an accident... That's when the feeling of dread REALLY kicked in. My first thoughts were, "Where's Kai?... KAI!" as I viewed the wreckage. Thankfully, he wasn't there but I haven't seen my baby since.

We called and called for about half an hour, no Kai. I had grown quite worried. It had rained on and off several times since I left and before, the high winds spooked him down the back. However, we figured he was hiding from the rain and we were too tired to go looking, despite my feelings/need too. We had to give him a chance to come home on his own anyway. (Longest it's ever taken is half an hour, one time two hours.)

I went to bed around 6PM, woke up at 4AM and thought, "Perfect time to let Kai in." So I got up and called him... Nothing. I called again and again, nothing. Finally around 5:30AM I knew he wasn't coming home. I called mom in a panic and we devised a plan.

Before mom would take Lisa to school, they would both go looking for him in the car around back and down Kingswood. Meanwhile, I continued to call every hour on the hour all morning, til around noon. Nothing.
After an unsuccessful search, I told mom I was going to make some posters for her to print while she took Rick to work/picked up Lisa from school. Took all afternoon cause PSP8 kept CRASHING. Granted, my PC has been put on sleep instead of shut down for almost a week now but damn it, I didn't need this.

Printing them took almost just as long. Due to the color photos and mothers choice in printers, it took an hour and a bit, then it took mom 30 more minutes after that to get them here at my house. (Mom had to print them at her place.) Not that I could do much during that time. Wouldn't you know it? I get half way down Kingswood and my system decides it's time to go home. I fucking HATE THIS when it happens! (But then again, who loves it?) I don't know if it's anxiety or a demonic hold over my being but I'm -this- close to slicing myself in half to end it all. >_< How can something designed to keep me ALIVE be so dysfunctional?

ANYWAY, around 6PM, mom came home and started putting up posters. I was being uber-depressed, filling out forms at the local humane societies web page. Then mom called to tell me she threw her back out. -.-; HOW I will never understand. Apparently she ruined this muscle in her back YEARS ago when doing this bastards windows... All sixty of them. Ever since then it hurts like a bitch when she throws it out/does too much with her arms.

So By 6:45, I'm out there with my Tylenol and water, fixing her back. Around 7:08, I went back in to find some more shit for her then got back to the grueling task of filling out online forms then around 7:45-8:00PM, she calls me YET AGAIN to ask if I could go with her to put up posters in bus shelters, since the poles were too wet from the misty rain.
I wasn't all that up to it but I went anyway.

It wasn't a HORRIBLE experience, I talked to a guy who helped me hold up a sign then dashed when his bus came. XD Nice guy but a little scatter brained. Then I met this smoker at another station who blew smoke in my face. -.-; It was an accident and he did say sorry. We got to talking when I was trying to find a place to put this double sided poster. (No glass.)

He said he did see Kai (or a cat just like him) but it was 2 weeks ago. Sigh. Sooo close. ;-;

On the way home we noticed a poster. It was dated but it was hard to tell HOW dated since they didn't weather proof their posters like we did. (We go all out. Plastic sheets and everything. XD) What disturbed me was that they were looking for the same type of cat we were except theirs was 2 years old. Kai COULD be that old but he doesn't look/act like it most of the time. I jotted down one of the numbers and plan to call tomorrow to see if they have him.

Mom and I have been calling all night. I just finished calling him now. He would BE here if he was free. Whomever has him, isn't letting him go. The only cat that seems to be around is the mean white bastard that always fought with Kai. He seems to be calling Kai too, daring him to fight for his throne back. Bastard.

Anyway kids, it's almost 1:30AM - (Yes it took me 2hrs to write this. I multitask, remember?) - and I'd rather spend the day searching rather than sleeping in. Later.

-.-; Kill me...

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 02:41:28 GMT

I hate sore throats, I really do... Been sick since Thurs-Sat, when I started singing to some vids I like on Youtube. I just got to the point where I could sing Hades intro as well as the official singer, then my voice started to die and now my entire neck/part of my chest hurts. I have to keep taking Tylenol AND Day/NyQuil in order to function. I hope to god it's not time for me to get my tonsils out. Halloween's too close and I take forever to heal.

In other Health News. My stomach issues haven't gotten any better. I had another embarrassing incident at Tim Horton's where, after spending 20 mins in the bathroom, one of their dumbass, college kid employees "checked in" on me, by looking through at me through the crack in that crack between the stall door/wall. I could've died! I was so embarrassed, I got up and ran out without saying a word. I should've yelled at her for being a peeping tom but you know, reality is never as sweet as the reaction you dream up later.

Now in Art related news... Pixeling has been a royal pain in the ass. My muse came and left within a day back around the 22nd and hasn't been back since. Oh sure, she drops in every now and again but most of the time she just comes in to get something then hit me in the back of the head as she heads out to inspire someone more deserving. T_T
I've been trying to pixel without her but it's almost hopeless...

Not AS hopeless as some of my friends have been though. Tonight for example, I did nothing but bitch to someone who idolizes me on Gaia about my lack of talent and she, surprisingly, did nothing but encourage me and I gotta admit, it felt really good. I don't get nearly enough praise offline... However, I can't say the same for one of my idols/best friend.

She totally misunderstood me when I mentioned "giving up on art" and thought I was talking about her. [Since she mentioned getting an art book @ the store.] She went on and on about how she couldn't live without it but the moment she found out I was talking about myself, her attitude went from defend to total acceptance. "Well, you do whatever you like."
WTF?!

That hurt, a lot. Feel free to call me a total suck - you are anyway - but I was really hoping for some words of encouragement from someone who's WAY more talented than I am, not to mention my FRIEND. At least that's what I thought... I don't know. Lately she seems to give less and less of a damn about me, when she's been on one of my "best friend" pedestals since the beginning. I was never really as important to her...

Getting back to the argument at hand: Apparently she can't be bothered to encourage me because I'm "too strong willed." Granted, I make mules look down right obedient, I'm so stubborn but it's more of the act than the actual words of wisdom that make me feel better. God, I'm such an insecure little shit.

Currently she's awaiting my reply but I don't feel like I should have to explain this to her. I have on a lot of occasions but she can't seem to grasp it... Our relationship has become the same as the one with my mother. Mom thinks she knows me, knows what I like and how to appease me but in reality, she'd about 10 years out of date. Making her totally unrelatable and distant.

I'd really hate that to happen to my friend and I but... Maybe I have no choice in the matter.

Writer's Block: Finders keepers?

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 23:31:10 GMT

If you found a $100 at the library, would you pocket it or turn it in? What about at a diner or pub? Confess!

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I'd keep it. God knows I'd need it more than the person who lost it. :(

The Queen has been Dethroned...

Tue, 08 Sep 2009 15:51:02 GMT

And he's the only one to get away with it too! XD

DevArt Quiz posted here

Sun, 06 Sep 2009 16:23:19 GMT

1. What color are your kitchen plates?
Man colors-we collect from yard sales and novelty places and the grocery store

2. What book are you reading now?
nothing ^^; I need to read more.

3. What's the most recent thing you bought?
Physically bought? Chinese Food
Bought on the internet? Hades themed items from eBay

4. What is on your mouse pad?
That World of Warcraft Orc on the wolf mount. Hot. XD

5. Favorite board game?
I liked Sorry as a kid but I don't have any current favorites

6. Favorite smells?
Cookies baking at Loblaws. It fills the air at night. My nostrils have never been happier.

7. What is the first thing you think of in the morning?
"I need to get up ... but I don't want to."

8. Favorite color:
Blue Violet

9. Least favorite color:
Aqua/Pastels

9. How many rings until you answer the phone?
I let the machine answer my land line, cellphone only gives me 30 seconds to answer, if that and since it's a musical ring tone, I have no idea how many "rings" it takes to answer.

10. Future child's name:
Boy: Murdoc, 'Bo, Jiece, Jason, Lucifer
Girl: Raven, Jade, Jenna, Maci (Pronounced May-see), Moira
Not that I ever plan to have -any- future meatsacks...

11. Chocolate or Vanilla?
CHOCOLATE!!! *is eating a chocolate poptart right now!*

12. Do you like to drive fast?
I don't drive.

13. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
...Sometimes when the kitty isn't around.

14. Do you like thunderstorms?
FUCK YES! :D LET 'EM ROAR ZEUS! LET 'EM ROAR!!

15. What was your first car?
Don't have one.

16. What is your star sign?
Western - Cancer
Eastern - Rat
(I'm always stuck with the loser animals. T_T)

17. Do you eat the stems of broccoli?
HISSSSSS!

18. If you could have any job, what would it be?
Pixel Artist, Cartoon Voice actor, Producer, Video game maker... take your pic.

19. If you could have any color hair, what would it be?
I kinda like my hair color... I tried dying it raven Black once but it didn't work out.

20. Is the glass half full or half empty?
Empty. Quit being a fucking optimist! D<

21. What is your favorite movie?
-.-; No idea... Changes with the wind.

22. Do you type with your fingers on the right keys?
...WTF? This question doesn't make a hell of a lot of sense. Does my right hand stay on it's side of the board? Most of the time... Do I use the key/#pad, yes. Do I make typos? All the fucking time.

23. What’s under your bed?
I'm afraid to find out.

24. What is your favorite number?
6 & 7

25. Favorite sport to watch?
BLOOD sports.

26. Your single biggest intense pain?
Having a malfunctioning digestive system since birth. T_T

27. Person most likely to respond?
No one. I have no friends. ;-;

28. Person you sent this to who is least likely to respond?
I'm not sending it to anyone :P

29. Ketchup or mustard?
KETCHUP! Seriously, who the fuck is going to choose mustard?

31. Hamburger or hot dog?
BURGERS! I'm like, addicted to those things. Can't stand hotdogs though... Unless they're scary city franks. P:

32. Fuck!
...You too. :P

33. The best place you have ever been?
My own mind.

34. What is your screen saver?
I don't use one. *slaps own hand* Bad, bad Michelle.

35. What is your favorite fast food place?
Arby's.

36. What are your favorite dog breeds?
LOATHE, Dogs. D< Kill them all.

37. Your nickname(s)?
Mich, Noir and Apple... My sister is disturbed. XD

38. Have you ever been kissed by the opposite gender?
Yeah.

39. What annoys you the most?
. . . A comprehensive list could take weeks.

40. What’s your crush's name?
...Daggett. [Link]

41. What’s your best friend’s name?
Lindsay... Although she's been on thin ice lately.

42. Which celebrity annoys you the most?
I don't usually pay attention to that sort of thing but I'll say whomever occupies the top 10 list in popular music these days.

43. What type of music do you like the most?
Hard rock, Metal, classic metal, classical... Hell. Pretty much anything as long as it isn't rap or country.

44. Fuck, I deleted it by accident!
And you couldn't re-write it because...

45. FUCK AGAIN!
HEY! First time is free, after that you gotta start earning your keep.

46. Okay, If you and one other person could be alone on the entire earth, who'd it be?
*eyes Daggett evily* Yes, my guy is fictional. The best men always are!... Well, except for Twilight and Final Fantasy. XD

47. Are you a righty or a lefty?
Righty

48. What's your favorite TV show?
Cartoon: Wolverine & the X-men currently
Live: DS9

49. If you could make-out with any fictional character, who would it be?
DAGGETT!!! :D Or Lobo... XD

50. If you could say or do anything to Johnny Depp, what would you do?
How much "acting" is really involved with the "running like a fag" bit in POTC?

51. What is your favorite book(s) or author?
Don't have one...

52. If someone stole your wallet/ bag what would you do?
Freak and murder them if I happen to catch them. Seriously. Touch my shit and it's the end of you. D<

53. Would you/have you ever had someones name tattoo'ed on your body?
Fuck no. I don't need a tattoo to prove you love me/vice versa. I need your loyalty and devotion.

54. How many fingers am I holding up?
...

55. Where's mother?
At the apartment I imagine.

56. Do you know the Muffin Man? If so, then who is he, and where does he live?
Not... personally but I hear he's in a legal battle with Lady Gaga about the improper use of/failed attempt to pervert the word, "Muffin" in Poker face.

57. Who's your favorite pirate?
Jack Sparrow.

58. Who's your favorite ninja?
Raphael (FUCK NARUTO!)

59. If you were to choose another place and period of history to live, where and when would it be?
Oh geez... I dunno. I kinda don't fit any era, including the one I'm living in now. Can't I go to the future instead?

60. Ice cream or pastries?
Pastries... I can't eat ice cream sadly ;-; but if I could, I would so pick it.

61. If you can be born again for the same life, would you do that?
Only if I could remember my previous life and do things differently.

62. What is your favorite animal?
Mythical: Dragons
Extinct: Utahraptor
Alive: Cats (Wild and Domestic)

64. What is your object in life?
A dildo... OH WAIT-

65. What do you see first every morning when you wake up?
The cat, back of the couch, tv, my scary as hell ryuk pillow... Depends which way I'm facing. XD

66. What is your computer wallpaper (Background.)?
[Link]

67. Since this is an art community, what inspires your art the most?
TV/Holidays.

68. Do YOU iPod?
Nope.

69.) Would you train a monkey for $20 dollars?
Fuck no.

70) Do you ever go to church?
Used to but when I started bleeding, I stopped screwin' around.

71. Lyk OMG am I a n00b???
In every sense of the... is that even a word?

72. Is your mind corrupt?
Nahhhh. Well you know, a little dark, a little gloomy and hey, full of dead people, what are you going to do?

73. What comes to mind when you hear "My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard, and they're like, it's better than yours! Said damn right, it's better than yours!"?
... Nothing.

75. why is arctictransfuse so gay?
...Because you're an expert on the subject. :P (Srsly, who the fuck is that?)

76. Do you hate KP-chan?
Whooo?

77. Which browser do you use?
FF/Opera

78: What are you wearing right now?
These bitchin black cargo-ish pants. They're awesome.

79: What did you last eat?
Chocolate poptart...

80: Do you have a chronic illness of some kind?
IBS... What? it's a very common problem :P You probably have it and don't know it.

81: What is hiding in your closet?
Closet? What closet? I live out of a garbage bag!

82: Do you regret anything?
Pretty much everything.

83: What's the hardest thing about growing up?
Maturity/Growing up period/adult entertainment. (Seriously, drinking oneself stupid, fucking strangers and leaping off cliffs just doesn't do anything for me.)

84: If you could have any power, what would it be?
Shapeshifting, Super Strength or immortality.

85: Stupidest thing you've ever done?
Agreeing to make Halloween Pixels for Gaia is at the top of the list right now.

Updates...

Thu, 03 Sep 2009 11:07:39 GMT

- My ultra sound came back... Normal.
I was more pissed than happy because I was so looking forward to an answer.

- It's September...

- My meds are wearing off/not strong enough.
Might have to up the dose.

- Just over a month until Halloween.
*slight PANIC*

- I have no idea how I'm going to manage/update shit for Halloween
(Both online and offline)

- Just starting pixels for this Halloween/finishing pixels for last years Halloween.

- Kitty's doing fine.

- I'm on a nocturnal schedule again.
I feel good but I feel bad for missing all the good days we have left.

Fucking cat...

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 01:52:04 GMT

Welp, kitty [Kai] almost got run over for the second time in front of me. -.-; I swear to God that cat likes giving me heart failure.

I'm not even sure which I'm more angry with. The cat for not listening and running out on to the street with on coming traffic or me for squealing "STOP!!!" like a whiny little bitch again. Augh.

And the shit continues to hit the fan...

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 05:19:13 GMT

Seriously, I think I need to stop speaking out loud how much of a jackass of fictional jackassery god is... For he seems to be making me pay for it big time and he's being mean about it.

Good news: Looks like Kai's here to stay, he loves us and has had zero problems adjusting to the house.
Bad news: He only lets me get about 4-5hrs sleep a night. SIX, if I'm lucky.

Good news: Kai's learned to use the litter box tonight. \o/
Bad news: But... he did it with #2. X_X

Good news: Kai kept it "contained" but...
Bad news: Like my mom's cat Wishbone, Kai doesn't "flush." (Cover it over.)

Good news: Mom was going to see if Wayne could come home early to move/clean the litter box.
Bad news: I couldn't wait anymore and did it myself. OMG, NEVER AGAIN! (I can still TASTE that smell. xox )

Good news: Regardless, Wayne is taking the litter box downstairs tonight.
Bad news: He'll probably let it go to seed/wasting litter so I'll have to keep changing it.

Good news: Kai is a perfect cat in many ways. He's relatively clean, has a gorgeous coat and a temperament to match.
Bad news: Kai is sick/infested with fleas and has the runs. Treatment isn't an option right now either. e.e

Good news: Mom feeds these two cute, little strays at the apartment.
Bad news: One of them got run over two nights ago.

Good news: One of the fellow residents, took it to the ASPCA.
Bad news: The ASPCA seems to have "misplaced" said cat, saying no cat "matching that description" had come in.

Good news: The landlady who feeds/cares for the cats too, called and inquired about said cat.
Bad news: Not only was she told that no cat existed but if it had come in "that damaged" it would be "most likely be euthanized" the moment it came in the door due to lack of funding/space. -.-'
(They only have themselves to blame for that. Rude little crotch sniffers.)

Good news: Pissed off, the landlady went down there to see for herself.
Bad news: I don't know if she found the cat or not.

Good news: Mom got the apartment semi clean yesterday/today...
Bad news: Only to have the plumber guy cancel yesterday and try to charge her $400 dollars today. (To install a sink. It's the landlady's/owners responsibility to pay for shit like this. She's already gone six months without!)

Good news: Despite the storm, mom made it to work with little to no problems.
Bad news: Rick, her boyfriend, mistakenly exchanged numbers with this other lady and neglected to tell her [mom].

Good news: Things seemed to be running smoothly at work...
Bad news: Until said lady showed up and thanked Val for inviting her... only to find out that Rick did w/o her knowledge.

Good news: Mom will be getting off work soon.
Bad news: I have no idea what mood she'll be in.

Fuck. My. Life.

And my luck...

Wed, 19 Aug 2009 06:13:42 GMT

...just continues to be bad.

Let's see, what's happened since the last update?

- Kai chased a baby skunk but luckily, didn't get sprayed.
- Kai almost got run over again due to my sister being a dunce; thinking "now" is "later" and "later" is "now." e.e
- Money is so tight, we can't even afford to get TEA, let alone a donut.
- I had to rebook my ultrasound, twice.
- I almost dropped my cellphone in to the toilet
- My digestive tract is rebelling

And just TODAY...
- I stay up all night so I don't miss my ultrasound
- In the few hours before my ultrasound I knock over my change jar
- And my fan takes a DIVE out of my second story window.
- It still works. o.O
- The lady they got to do me was a cold hearted bitch that made me feel stupid for signing a concent form which states they were going to go ENTERNALLY. I was told to "read and sign this please" and of course, they don't expect you to actually read it so I tried to speed read, feeling rushed. I saw the part where they said that but I thought it was OPTIONAL since none of my previous ultrasounds required RAPE! I was also distracted by the more important question, "Are you allergic to Latex?"

So when I get back there, she tells me what she's going to do and I was like "" She was surprised because I had "...signed the consent form. Didn't you read it?" Bitch, they didn't even give me time to read it/fully understand and frankly, admitting that I'm a 25 year old VIRGIN, isn't something I'd like to bring up in a room full of strangers... I had no problem telling her though.

"But... I'm a VIRGIN." I say out of desperation and she's like, "Oh! Well we can't do it then." Inside I was like, "THANK YOU!" but she couldn't help but sound disappointed.

Then she went on about the all "so much better detail" internals get - like I gave a fuck - and then tried to see if I had popped my own cherry with tampons and I said, "Listen lady, I don't even like sex toys going up there. Anything -unnatural- down there = NO." Fucking legalized rapist.

And I never thought I'd say this but, I've never been more grateful for being a virgin for NONE of my ultrasounds hurt like this one did. She pressed so hard on everything. I feel like she strapped me to a wall and went ten rounds on my abdomen... and it still does. X_x I can imagine how "gentle" she'd be on my vag.

Not to mention she ruins my underwear and my BEST BRA with all that fucking gel shit and SHE DIDN'T EVEN LET ME CLEAN UP! She just rushes me out the door saying there were "...paper towel in the change room and you can use the gown too".
WTF? I'm sorry doc, am -I- holding -you- up? How inconsiderate of me.

You know... Looking back on it now, I guess I should left when the first words out of her mouth was, "Okay, so why are you here today?" DON'T YOU KNOW?!!!

... Is what I should've said. Instead, I tried explaining to her why I needed my lower left and upper right flank done but I suck at explaining anything (as you can tell) and ya know, it's not like it was my job to tell her. It says on the paper, "lower left, upper right, ultrasound" That's all you need to fucking know bitch!

I'm going to complain to doctor Vozis about this, as well as some other things. Her never calling back patients, for one and taking her sweet ass time getting me my specialists, for another. If she had actually gotten on the phone after I left - (instead getting ready to go home) - I might've had one already but now I don't even want her to fucking bother.
Fuck the specialists, fuck the dental, fuck the therapist, I DON'T NEED ANY FUCKING ONE OF YOU! And you have that "cunt fondler" downstairs to thank for that! DX
- Oh, and my moms stray kitten she feeds at the apartment, got run over tonight by someone.
We didn't see who it was but it's alive... barely. Moms neighbor rushed it to their vets/the humane society and I swear to god, if they don't fucking tell us what happened to the god damned animal this time, I'm going to euthanize those dog-humping, cat blowing, animal lovers in the most INHUMANE way possible!
Edit: And I dislocated my knee 3-4hrs after writing this entry. -.- Fucking cats.

adds PERIOD to the list of woes

Tue, 11 Aug 2009 15:48:59 GMT

Sigh... Seriously? Did I kill someone in a past life or is this about the stick of rocket candy I stole when I was like, 15? (I'm so fucking bad ass, I know.)

Anywhosit! I'm just here to update on Teds condition. We got him to laugh, rant and rave last night and he slept over and now he's numb. Which is understandable. I was in a funk for a good MONTH when my kitty died...

However, I can't help but be upset with him. He should've taken the cat to a clinic, money or no money. He could've signed the cat over if he had to and he keeps telling himself "She was too far gone." to make himself feel better but ya know, he shouldn't be allowed to feel better IMO. The cat was FIVE. FIVE! That's a baby by today's standards! I also have the strongest feeling ever that, unlike blackie, this problem was easily fixable.

Mom says "Well sometimes even with help they only make it to two or three."
"But at least they tried and ya know, I bet this could've been prevented if the cats got their fucking shots and got fixed!" I shout on the phone, mad as hell.

Not at her or him, but his dad. I KNOW that prick is holding out on his family and he's too fucking cheap for proper vet care... WHICH leaves me with a nasty moral dilemma. Ted has other cats at that deplorable home, I know none of them are fixed or properly vaccinated and if Chichi had something they all could catch, good lord. So my choice is, let him grieve for a month, letting the other cats die of the same infection or forgo his grief, report his FATHER to the ASPCA and get those cats out of there...

Either scenario will kill Ted or make him go suicidal but what can I do? His dad is a hoarder. He even feeds/tries to tame the wildlife and even though I'm supposed to be there for Ted, his cats have most of my concern.

HOLY FUCK! What did I do?!

Tue, 11 Aug 2009 05:46:47 GMT

Okay, quick post cause I'm on the clock here:
During the past week and a bit:
- Bills are not getting paid on time
- Grans pissant neighbors are driving her to an early grave with their month long construction.
- Mom's car breaks down
- Wayne/Rick are being drama queens, more than usual.
- Kai gets a mysterious cut on his forehead
- My comp goes haywire. (Because of a LOOSE WIRE! XD)
- Mom's car develops a SECONDARY problem at the shop. -.-
- Huge ass storm last night knocks out the power temporarily. (I saw it. Fucking bitchin' moment.)
- Kai sleeps with me in bed and gives me FLEAS!
- My feet are bit to shit. DX
- Kai also sneezed on me, sending my allergies through the roof.
- Kai got in to a fight with the other, new resident male. A -completely- white tabby.
- And now, JUST NOW, Ted's cat died. And it was his birthday today. (Well, yesterday now.)

Going to go pick him up. Later.

Edit: And my PERIOD just started... LOL! XD I gotta stop asking "Wha-" *shuts up*

Current Events...(In Point Form)

Fri, 07 Aug 2009 04:12:29 GMT

Got a new kitty: Kai, has he's been dubbed by my sister, just wandered in to our lives about a week... possibly two weeks ago. He's a street/outdoors cat and immediately, he adopted us as his own the moment he sat his ass down and MEWED for food on our steps.

We have NO idea where this little cutey came from but he's absolutely adorable and so friendly. We believe he was either owned by someone at some point or is let out on a daily basis but he has no identification. Hell, he's not even neutered. (That's how we found out he was a boy. XD)

And ya know, for a wild kitty, he's surprisingly tame and for a male, he sure is MOUTHY! Maw! Mew! Meow! God, if there's a mew, he's used them all.

GODDAMNIT KAI! Kai came over for a little while tonight. I was delighted to see him. We cuddled, I scritched, he played and ate his treats happily, then he did his most terrifying ritual. Every time he visits me he either, goes and patrols my side of the street or crosses the road to check out what used to be Tiggers territory.

Tonight he decided to cross the road and for 9PM, this place gets heavy traffic. I called him back every time he went to dash (with cars coming) but eventually he stops listening to me and crosses the road without me. I followed quickly after and got stuck at the line.

Traffic coming both ways, with the opposite lanes about 10ft away. Not enough time to cross.
"Stop." I try telling the cars who either don't see me or don't care.
5ft now. "STOP!!!!!!" I scream!
*SSSSCCCRRRREEEEECCHHHH!!!* goes the first car, JUST before he hit Kai.
I shouted "Thank you!" in a huffed tone cause my heart was still in my throat, then I brain freezed for a moment.
The SUV behind him honked her horn long and loud. I looked at them like "Don't be honking at-OHSHIT! WHERE AM I?-FUCK!"
I look to my left to see a wall of traffic coming my way and made a MAD DASH to the sidewalk. That's when the driver stopped honking her horn. Heh heh. -^^-; (Damn I feel retarded... It's been a tard-filled week for me.)
Needless to say... I. HATE. CARS!!! These things are worse than TELEVISION. At least you'll be purely entertained while your brain/body turn to mush. Cars will permanently put your organs out of commission and they squish kitties! D:

I already had one cat die because of me, I was a mess and I didn't even know it! I don't even want to think what'll happen if I lose Kai this way. Next time, I'm carrying him across.

Tiggers owner is still a cunt: Tigger got out two days ago and not even 10 minutes after she was let out, she got in to a pissing contest with our new(ish) neighbors cat, Earnest.

They went at each others throats but thanks to me, I managed to call Tigger back to the front of the house. Sadly, her owner saw me and came over. At first, I was ready and even urged her to move her skinny little ass over but for some reason, my brain shut off when it came to the verbal confrontation.

God I don't even remember how the conversation went anymore. Here's what I remember. Sorry for the fragmentation.

"SHE GOT IN TO A FIGHT WITH EARNEST! The neighbors cat!" - me
"It's not safe for her to be over here."
"I don't let her out hun."
"She comes over here because she gets food."
"Oh yes. How fucking dare I show -your cat- some love and attention? Something you know nothing about."
"She has to be an indoor cat because of you!"
"And it's your fault she's psycho.--"

I was so pissed, I had to keep my arms crossed while confronting her or I would have plowed her snobby little nose in to the [porches] iron railing! (I wish I had.)
Then she ran across the street with her cat, yelling something to me. I yelled back. Something about her "not knowing anything about love and affection", and if she did, she would "get Tigger a pet therapist" - Told ya my brain shut off. - but we were both drowned by the traffic so I "intelligently" gave her the finger to which she grinned, cocked her head back in a nod and went, "Nice."
THAT part I heard... and I'm not too proud of that. I know I can do better... My brain just shuts off instead of thinking on the fly.

Anyway, I called mother and started ranting and raving about how it all went down. She got an earfull and while that was unfair, she listened and so did my neighbor, June. Remember her?
For those who weren't around back then, (God, did I even write it down/had LJ back then?) June was the one who assaulted me in a drunken rage when I allegedly hit her cat.
The truth of that altercation was I was trying to prevent Skully (her cat) from fighting with Jaggy. The black male that looks like Isis. (Pics soon.) So I stuck my hand between them and both fled in to different directions but she saw me decking the poor thing.

Anywhosit. She's been trying like mad to befriend me/get on my good side for the past year or two. WHY, I will never know. I want nothing to do with that retired hooker. She lost any fucking chance to make friends with me back when I was like, 10 but I digress.

Despite the fact that she knows I hate her, she stayed and talked with me after I got off the phone with mother. She kinda forced me to end the call prematurely because she couldn't stop laughing at the line, "Ooohhh yes! I must be such a mother fucking threat cause everyone knows I put crack in the nip and anthrax in the food bowl!"
It was meant to be funny but not THAT funny... She told me later on that she laughed because she could never picture me hurting an animal, aside from protecting my own from another one.

This made me really think about how much I project without realizing it. June knows that I would never hurt an animal and she also knows I gush over cats. Damn my kitty kryptonite! It's just one of those things I don't want anyone to know, ya know? (So why am I admitting this ONLINE where everyone can see? Meh. Cats out of the bag really... and has been ever since Blackie died in 07. Haven't you been paying attention?)

GETTING BACK to Tigger's Sandy Snatch (of an owner). I didn't appreciate being blamed for the cat having to be indoors. IMO, it never should have been let out in the first place but she let her out and Tigger chose us from the start. Our only mistake was being nice to her (the cat). It's also not my fault that the cat is crazy, nor is it my fault that for THREE YEARS she did practically DICK about the cat until that fateful day she saw my sister and I, actually having some FUN with her. Jealous much, bitch?

And what about that line, "It's not safe for her over here." It never was you dimwit! You live on the corner, of a MAJOR, FOUR-FUCKING-LANE street with heavy traffic at 6-9AM, 11-1PM and 3-6PM, sometimes even as late as 9PM on weekends and for TWO of those THREE YEARS, I tried getting your feral feline to stay on your side and what did I get for my trouble? You, in a hideous nightgown, yelling at me -across the street- not to feed her.

Part of me wants to report her but I'd have to write a fucking novel of a story to tell, leave out all the bits of me feeding her cat (which legally, I don't think she can stop me from doing.) have someone else read/say the lines and practice, practice, practice my lines for when animal control will, inevitably, show up at my door. I can't lie for shit. Wish I could but my voice and my eyes give me away every time... Must work on that.

Computer Drama: That same day all that kitty hell went down, my comp shut down randomly. I initially thought "Power outage" but everything else in my room was still functioning so I restarted the comp, only to have it shut down during start up.

In my panic I called mother to call our techie neighbor, Josh. He didn't answer me all day so I frantically searched for the components to my External HD to back my shit up. That took the majority of the day and so did the Anti-virus scan with AVG.

I fell asleep with it running.

The next day I was relieved and disappointed to see that AVG found nothing but copies of an old virus from some rar files I neglected to delete from the E-HD. Those were quickly taken care of with a few deleitions.

Everything continued normally until 11:30AM when my comp died again. I told mom to get Josh there by any means.
12:30PM - Josh shows up and within 30 seconds, finds out what the problem is.
. . . I had a lose power cord. *beat red now*

I'm kicking myself over this. Out of EVERYTHING, I didn't think to check the hardware! Idiot! DX

Everyone's trying to make me feel better by saying, "Hey, I've done it." but of course, I have to be snarky and reply, "Thanks for making me feel worse." XD Fallowed by a quick slap to the skull. DX Violent, violent people I live with.

Subeta/Roliana/Gaia are all having these events happening right now.
Subeta has been doing this Island Themed Plot for about a month now. So far we've been collecting randomly appearing, gold objects to "sacrifice" for worthless beaded/island jewelry, as well as "Soak" each other with water pistols/balloons. I managed to get the achievements for both by soaking myself on the last day. XD

Now we're in the second phase. Restock War/Battle Arena. Basically you pick a team to collect points for and buy items from main/non-user shops with a rarity of 45+. I chose pirates because let's face it, I am one.
The Battle part is just like Neopets Arena. Choose 2 weapons, a spell if you have one, press attack, see what happens and repeat until dead.

I'm doing okay, for someone who hasn't updated her weapons in 3 years. I'm a little disappointed that one of my best weapons got downgraded and turned in to a mere wearable for the Gaia Like avatars they started back in... 07/early 08, I believe.

Anywho, I'm doing better than in previous years but that doesn't mean I'm actually good at any of this. XD I have around 150-200 pts for the pirates right now but I'm sure everyone else is like 500 - 1000.

Roliana is having their second birthday celebration happening. I've already collected all the free birthday items so now I'm taking a bit of a break from there.

Gaia's doing this Summer camp bullshit soon... Not sure if I want to take part just yet.

Health Issues Getting an Ultrasound on the 11th. Hopefully it'll shed some light on what's been going on with me.

Well that's all I can remember right now. I'm dead as a doornail. Hopefully, I won't be haunted by images of my new kitty getting run over. T_T

AHHHH! LOBO!!! MARY SUE!!! TWILIGHT!!!! AHHHH!!!

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 03:18:43 GMT

Here's the link incase the video doesn't appear right. D<
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vhCwfUnZ2hM

WHO THE FUCK IS WRITING THIS MARY-SUE-RIDDEN SCRIPT?!
The same brainless cunt that brought us TWILIGHT?! DX

KILL!REND!FRAG!DESTROY!!!!!

Sat, 25 Jul 2009 18:51:39 GMT

Lobo is getting his own movie. Should be great news to those that love him but no, it's in fact the worst thing that I/we could hear right now. Not only is it going to be directed by the same prick who brought us Bitchney Spears [Joseph Kahn] -- SERIOUSLY?! DEL TORO FROM HELLBOY WOULD DO A BETTER JOB! (And he's shit.) -- But the movie rating is going to be PG-13...

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?! Did you even WATCH Wolverine Origins, Mr. Producer?! [Joel Silver]

Read the fucking article before continuing.

Waaaiit a minute... Did I read that right? "Avatar effects"... PLEASE tell me he's not talking about Avatar: The Last Air Bender?! Cause if he is, this fuck needs to be shot in the nuts, and then the head... but only after drowning his bleeding lions in about 2L's of Vodka... then setting it on fire... Just because. ♥

Oookay. This is one of the few testaments that shows how much I pay attention to the media circuit. Apparently it's this movie that's been in production for a millenia and has been hyped up as hell by both the media and fans of the creator. Will that be enough to save Lobo from this travesty? Probably not.

*Heavy-misery ridden-sigh* It's been hard enough keeping Lobo alive over the past 10 years he's been out of the comics. What the hell is Silver trying to do? Kill him off entirely?
No one aside from Keith and Roger has been able to bring Justice to Lobo - (DC's lack of advertising didn't help matters either) - and because of that, Lobo went from one of the most popular DC characters, to some big mook people bring out to either stir shit up or make fun of at his expense and while I don't know how they manage to do this but they always manage to get his personality WRONG. --

God!, I just want to blow up every theater within a ten mile radius of here... or off myself. Seriously, I'd be less offended if you shot my dog. (Not that I have one.) Ya see, I love Lobo, to DEATH here. He's probably one of my -if not THEE- most serious "fictional obsessions" I've had. (And no, I'm not afraid to admit this.) I feel in love with the bastich at 11 years old and it's still burning strong at 25. He's just one character I've never been able to let go. Oh sure, I find other guys to obsess over for a little while but eventually, I end up going back to Lobo like a stray dog.

... Heaven help any man who falls in love with me. (He's got one hell of a shadow to fill... Not that I'd date Lobo (or a wanna-be) in a heartfelt relationship. It would be more like, "You horny?" - "Yeah." - "Wanna do it?" - "Frag yes." kind of thing. XD)

So yeah. The next couple of years is going to be hell for me. IMDB says there's a "Lobo film in development" and the date next to it is 2010... Let's hope that 2012 zombie disaster can't tell time and hit us a little earlier than expected. (That's when the VENOM spin off is coming out... Ironically.)

Fucking INTERNATIONAL Incidences...

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 18:30:09 GMT

...My life should be a TV show. I'm not fucking kidding. I've had to deal with so much shit in my life- For example! I've had a boyfriend immigrate himself over the boarder to see me, only to have the "men in black" take him away the following Monday. I've also been kicked out of another boyfriends house, in a strange city, in the rain, with no money and no phone and as if that wasn't strange enough by itself!~ I was rescued by one of my cousins who just happens to show up at the shopping center I was hiding [from the rain].

But tonight... Tonight, takes the cake. I-I don't think I can even begin to describe how my night has gone... but here goes.

As you've probably guessed from the title, this little drama involves one of my friends from overseas. For his sake, (although why I even care anymore is beyond me) I'm going to address him as Blockhead because, let's face it, not only is the name well deserved but this is a really fucking embarrassing story.

The night starts innocently enough. I'm sitting at my desk, just futzing around in Subeta's Wardrobe when at 10:34PM, Blockhead messages me and... well, I'm going to let the conversation speak for itself...

(10:34:04 PM) Blockhead Says: hey
(10:34:36 PM) NoirRaven Says: Heyz
(10:35:13 PM) Blockhead Says: you ok
(10:35:19 PM) NoirRaven Says: Yeah
(10:35:20 PM) NoirRaven Says: I
(10:35:27 PM) NoirRaven Says: m actually feeling better
(10:35:29 PM) NoirRaven Says: tonight^
(10:36:05 PM) Blockhead Says: ok giid
(10:36:11 PM) Blockhead Says: good
(10:36:15 PM) NoirRaven Says: How are you?
(10:36:45 PM) Blockhead Says: not good
(10:36:50 PM) NoirRaven Says: Still?!
(10:37:30 PM) Blockhead Says: if i tell you you would get angry
(10:37:37 PM) NoirRaven Says: No I won't
(10:38:00 PM) Blockhead Says: i think if you saw me on cam, u would
(10:39:15 PM) NoirRaven Says: What? Did you get a girlfriend or something?
(10:40:51 PM) Blockhead Says: haha me ! get gf! don't be daft lol sorry buyt no im not that lucky
(10:41:05 PM) NoirRaven Says: XD Then what's wrong?
(10:41:06 PM) NoirRaven Says: Tell me
(10:41:31 PM) Blockhead Says: i did something bad and it hurt
(10:42:12 PM) NoirRaven Says: ....
(10:42:25 PM) NoirRaven Says: Stop teasing me with suspense already! Spit it out
(10:43:21 PM) Blockhead Says: u will be mad at me iff i tell u what i did it hurts like hell
(10:43:42 PM) NoirRaven Says: I will be even angrier if you don't tell me D<
(10:46:56 PM) Blockhead Says: i cut my arm open ok i was so sad about and sat on here all night wanting t talk to someone and no one would then this girl came on and said who's jimmy did he die odf cancer oh well least im alive :'( my uncle died of depresion he had family problems and yeh he may of taken something i dont know
(10:47:27 PM) NoirRaven Says: -.-; You're going to have to get a grip on that cutting problem
(10:47:32 PM) NoirRaven Says: Go to the hospital please
(10:48:28 PM) Blockhead Says: its lucky im not on cam
(10:48:45 PM) NoirRaven Says: Get the fuck to the hospital, right, now.
(10:49:42 PM) Blockhead Says: hold on i need more tissue
(10:51:04 PM) Blockhead Says: ok look wanna see me on cam before i go
(10:51:14 PM) NoirRaven Says: Why?
(10:51:41 PM) Blockhead Says: well were friends arny we
(10:52:18 PM) Blockhead Says: ok dw
(10:52:20 PM) NoirRaven Says: Yeah but ypu
(10:52:34 PM) NoirRaven Says: You're not going to die unless you're going to waste time bleeding to death
(10:54:14 PM) Blockhead Says: i just wanted to go on cam so you could see me before i go
(10:54:30 PM) NoirRaven Says: Augh. Alright
(10:54:43 PM) Blockhead Says: im sorry it dm
(10:54:45 PM) Blockhead Says: dw
(10:54:53 PM) NoirRaven Says: ...
(10:55:03 PM) NoirRaven Says: WILL YOU STOP FLIPPING FROM ONE TO THE NEXT?
(10:55:15 PM) NoirRaven Says: If you want me to view video with you
(10:55:22 PM) NoirRaven Says: either start it up or get going
(10:57:15 PM) NoirRaven Says: Helloooo?
(10:57:56 PM) Blockhead Says: its asking me to download dgsby or something
(10:58:48 PM) NoirRaven Says: Then ignore it
(10:58:57 PM) NoirRaven Says: Look
(10:59:00 PM) NoirRaven Says: I promise
(10:59:04 PM) NoirRaven Says: when you get back
(10:59:10 PM) NoirRaven Says: I'll watch you on cam but PLEASE
(10:59:15 PM) NoirRaven Says: go to the hospital
(10:59:20 PM) NoirRaven Says: and take your cell phone
(10:59:30 PM) NoirRaven Says: Text me when you see the doctors
(11:00:14 PM) Blockhead Says: i could try go on cam on here if it lets me
(11:00:40 PM) Blockhead Says: guess not
(11:01:15 PM) NoirRaven Says: No just go
(11:01:16 PM) NoirRaven Says: Please
(11:01:44 PM) NoirRaven Says: Just so you know, it's not good for me to be under a lot of stress. I kinda got a condition that's heavily affected by stress
(11:02:16 PM) NoirRaven Says: And you not going to the hospital to get your arm stitched (or taped closed at the very least) is REALLY stressing me out
(11:02:24 PM) NoirRaven Says: Call an ambulance or a cab
(11:02:26 PM) NoirRaven Says: something
(11:02:43 PM) NoirRaven Says: and get to that emergency room
(11:02:53 PM) NoirRaven Says: And that's an order! D<
(11:03:55 PM) Blockhead Says: ahh my hands are red i will go
(11:04:01 PM) NoirRaven Says: YES! PLEASE
(11:04:04 PM) NoirRaven Says: GO TO THE HOSPITAL
(11:04:06 PM) NoirRaven Says: PLEASE
(11:04:13 PM) NoirRaven Says: Text me when you're done
(11:04:18 PM) NoirRaven Says: Let me know what's happening
(11:04:33 PM) Blockhead Says: it wont stop
(11:04:42 PM) NoirRaven Says: CALL FOR AN AMBULANCE
(11:04:46 PM) NoirRaven Says: NOW
(11:05:15 PM) Blockhead Says: o feel sleepy
(11:05:39 PM) NoirRaven Says: AUGH
(11:05:41 PM) NoirRaven Says: *removed*!!!
(11:05:50 PM) NoirRaven Says: CALL 911 or whatever emergency # there is
(11:05:54 PM) NoirRaven Says: over there
(11:05:56 PM) NoirRaven Says: PLEASE
(11:05:58 PM) NoirRaven Says: CALL SOMEONE
(11:06:32 PM) NoirRaven Says: *removed*!!!
(11:06:39 PM) NoirRaven Says: CALL EMERGENCY
(11:06:41 PM) NoirRaven Says: NOW
(11:06:46 PM) Blockhead Says: i wil
(11:06:52 PM) Blockhead Says: get my fd
(11:06:58 PM) Blockhead Says: my mom
(11:07:03 PM) NoirRaven Says: CALL 911
(11:07:08 PM) NoirRaven Says: Get the police
(11:07:09 PM) NoirRaven Says: anyone
(11:07:16 PM) NoirRaven Says: tell them you're bleeding profusely
(11:07:18 PM) Blockhead Says: im soryr
(11:07:30 PM) NoirRaven Says: Stop typing to me and get on that fucking phone!
(11:10:32 PM) NoirRaven Says: *removed*?
(11:10:40 PM) NoirRaven Says: *removed* are you calling for help?
(11:13:56 PM) NoirRaven Says: *removed*!!!
(11:13:57 PM) NoirRaven Says: *removed*!!!
(11:13:58 PM) NoirRaven Says: *removed*!!!
(11:14:00 PM) NoirRaven Says: *removed*!!!
(11:14:10 PM) NoirRaven Says: HELLO?
(11:44:39 PM) NoirRaven Says: *removed*!!!
ANSWER ME
(11:44:45 PM) NoirRaven Says: *REMOVED!!!!*
(The *Removed* bits = His name. I felt I was using Blockhead too much already. Sorry.)

That went on well after midnight and to explain the gap between the last few messages... Simply put, I was busy. I was frantically searching for his home phone number, searching for the [Manchester] local police line, calling my mother to come home and aid in the search and calling Blockheads cell six times with no answer.

Finally, after 10 Google Searches I found the site I needed and called the number listed on the Manchester Police Forces website. By JOVE! It was the Inspectors main line. (He's like the Captain of the unit over there.) He obviously wasn't in but thanks to his answering machine, I got the number I needed for the Police Stations call line...
(By this time, mother was with me and I had just bought credits to call landlines with Skype. Love Skype. So much cheaper than using my cell and mom could hear easily with my high def speakers. *Hugs the woofer*)

Which made me hold for a minute or two. XD
"This is the manchester emergency bla bla bla. Please stay on the line. Your call is important to us and will be answered shortly."
Mom and I had a good chuckle over that. An EMERGENCY line with a "Please stay on the line" message. Just how much crime is going on over there, across the pond? XD

FINALLY this guy picks up and with an accent thick enough to cut a mans head off. >_< However, aside from being a little ill-tempered sounding, he did listen while I explained my situation:

"Hi, I have a bit of a *unique* situation but it's rather serious so bear with me.
My friend Steve and I were chatting and he told me he cut himself... Now I know how this sounds but please understand, he's rather disturbed and if it was anyone else I wouldn't believe them. He said it wouldn't stop bleeding, his hands were red, he was feeling sleepy and he stopped responding to me an hour ago and won't pick up his cell. I've called six times. I have his address here. Can you please send a squad car to his house? Just to check on him?"

And he replied:
"Okay well I'll tell you what I'll do. I'm gonna put you through to dispatch, you can tell them what happened, give them the address and go on from there, okay?"

And with that I was transferred to dispatch. I repeated my tale of woe but it was harder this time round thanks to conflicting accents/talk speeds. Thank God, for mother. She's the best translator for me. (I don't know what it is but the moment I hear Pigeon English/Thick Accents, my ears shut off.) Luckier still, was the fact that Blockhead gave me his home address the week before! We were going to mail each other cards and stuff for our birthdays/X-mas... I guess I'd better get him a get well (or die) card.

Anyway! After getting Blockheads information, he asked me if I was American before asking for my name and ending the conversation. XD Damn my New Yorker accent!

Needless to say, I was fucking WIRED after that phone call. I literally jumped out of the chair and started pacing to release all that pent up energy. I was dying to know if they had really gone out or if they were just amusing "the American girl."

Sensing my anxiousness, mom took me downstairs to show me this lovely, black leather recliner that she and grandma bought me as a late birthday present/make up for the microwave I got on my birthday. Wouldn't you know it? 30 seconds after seeing it, I give it's first official scratch! XD
The metal coating on my skull ring is starting to wear away/fray so when I went to feel the leather, it scraped along on the surface.

Mom almost had a conniption! If it wasn't for the fact that it was an unavoidable accident, I'd be writing this journal entry from 6ft below, in the backyard someplace. XD Instead of killing me, she immediately fetched this solution that's not meant for repair but hey, couldn't hurt. She put it on the scratch and while lessened, it didn't do much.

She left after that and soon after I got back inside, I got a text from Blockhead asking me, "Why did you call the police? I told you I was going to the hospital."
"Oh gee, I don't know Steve. You tell me you cut your wrists, the bleeding won't stop and you're feeling sleepy... What was I supposed to think?! I know the signs of blood loss, my mom used to be a paramedic!" That's when I jumped back on to Skype, gave him a call and chewed him out for five minutes straight.

Apparently he passed out after talking to me so that's why he didn't answer his cell. If that was the case, I have no idea what the cops did to make him conscious again. At least after that, he went to the hospital like I ~~demanded~~asked. XD He sent a text last night confirming that he got there in one peace but that was at 3:00AM my time. I haven't heard from him since but considering what he did, it wouldn't surprise me if the earliest I heard from him was a day or a week from now.

Welp, that's it for me kids. Between my friends distracting me, online crap and my own body rebelling from lack of sleep; this entry took like, 8 hours to write on and off. XD Sorry if some bits don't make sense. I am writing this sleep deprived.
Night all.

So how did my birthday go?

Wed, 08 Jul 2009 05:49:25 GMT

I had a pretty good BBQ but it ended up being like, 60/40 on the work/fun scale and my presents, while not bad, weren't very... what I call, "OMG you hit 25!" kind of wow...

Let's see... I got a cross, a heart necklace, a batman logo necklace, a mario bros 1up mushroom plushie and a black yoshi plushie-charm; a camo-batman action figure (wtf people? I like VILLAINS!), a giant dragon candle holder, a gargoyle stand (their matching pairs on lay-away), a light up dragon statue, a microwave(?!!*) and the most hilarious (and most promising gift) a Cancer themed Dagger from my friend Ted.

* - A microwave... Seriously?! Did I skip the past 10 years and turn 35? e.e
Granted, I've been wanting one but it was like, in the 90's in my top 100 things I want list. Sigh. I should've made a list but... I didn't know what I wanted. (Until now that is. XD) -.-

HOWEVER! The food and the cake were 10/10 each! The burgers were awesome (as always). The egg/potato salad, superb! The chicken kabobs... OMG! THE KABOBS! My compliments to the chef (mom)... and Presidents Choice of course. XD

AND THAT CAKE! Holy hell! is the best and simplest way to describe how amazing it was. Picture this: A rectangular, triple-layer cake, with dark, red icing. Three, elegant, yellow roses accented by black foliage occupying each corner, with bright orange flames tracing up the sides out of border, black as coal, set a blaze with 25 silver candles...

Okay, okay! Pics will be coming soon. I have to wait for them to get developed. We didn't think to bring batteries for the digital camera. *D'oh!/Facepalm*

So yeah... a 8/10 over all. The best gift was the dagger. I kinda wish they all had gotten me daggers. Ah well, at least the cake was epic. I just wish we used the Digital cam instead of those cheap, throw-aways you get at Blacks. I hope it comes out good. ;-;

PICS SOON! PROMISE! :D

Canada Day Wishes & Updates

Thu, 02 Jul 2009 03:13:25 GMT

Happy Birthday Canada... *finger twirl* As if there's anything to be happy about... Pardon me for being bidder. I'm sure every other [major] city in Canada is going to be enjoying a great show but sadly, Toronto won't be celebrating this year. Apparently the servants of the minor task forces (i.e. Garbage men) have decided that they're not getting enough respect/pay from the city - despite that they now have us PAYING taxes to have them take it away - so they've banded together with rest of the underdogs and canceled the Fireworks display.

Even though I probably wouldn't be going this year, I think it's bullshit that not only has the city let these morons push them around but those egotistical, delusional slaves actually think they're worthy of walking on the same level as everyone else.
YOU handle GARBAGE. No one is going to like you when you smell like decomposing "mystery-matter." e_e Also, it's not OUR FAULT for poor choice in career. Maybe you should've paid more attention in high school. >_<

I just don't know why the city didn't just hire the next-best pyro-technician team to replace the "A Team" and not let the citizens suffer from some jack-assas with a severe self-entitlement complex.
Ah well. Nothing we can do now I suppose...

Now about my hospital visit... That's right. I went to the hospital- *looks at clock* Day before yesterday now. [Monday.] -- Turns out I'm fine... well, mostly fine. I was seriously backed up, (which the laxatives are taking care of now), dehydrated, low potassium and I suffer(ed) from nasty anxiety. Aside from all that however, I'm A.O.K! No Diabetes, no signs of infections, etc... Although I doubt they checked for cancers, etc in the blood.

So YAY for being healthy! :D
All I gotta do now is try and clear out my system which is hard cause I can't stop eating. I might have to go back in to be "vacuumed" clean. XDD Yeah, that's right, I'm not afraid to admit that.
I also have to drink PLENTY of fluids, even if I'm not thirsty. *Drowning*
And fiber... something ELSE I need to keep up with. e.e Lordi!

My hopes is that I'll be healthy enough to enjoy my birthday on the 7th... Speakin of. I'm kind of half and half this year. Part of me really wants to throw something decent and the other doesn't even want to bother with any of it. I want to have a BBQ but I haven't even given my mother a birthday list yet.
Partially because I don't even know what to ask for... My x-box 360 ELITE is still sitting in it's box, FROM TWO YEARS AGO! XD God I hope it still works!

If any of you have any ideas, please let me know!

Edit @ 11:02PM: You know, I started this entry around 2AM this [Wednesday] morning and I was going to tell you about my hospital visit but ya know what? Fuck it. I'm tired and I would like to post this BEFORE Canada Day is over for the East Coast.

I will say this however, it was good and bad. 3/5 Nurses had sand in their snatches, the doc was nice and I got to meet a whole array of fucking hilarious characters at the hospital. So all in all, it was worth the trip.

Update on my condition and child rapist...

Sat, 27 Jun 2009 02:56:29 GMT

"He's dead Jim."

Seriously, why do people love Michael Jackson so? The guy, FUCKED CHILDREN! I don't care if he was never convicted, you know as well as I know that this system is corrupt, especially when it comes to celebrities. However, I must say I'm disappointed in how he died. When I first caught wind of this, the first question that came to mind was, "So which kid [finally] did him in?"

But no, it was a heart attack that killed him... Ah well. I'm sure his rape victims are happy and that's all that counts in the end.

So! Enough about some dead pedophile, let's update you on my condition.

I'm pretty much the same. Went to the walk in clinic and wouldn't you know it? My endorphins kicked in, killing any of my pain/misery I had. Kind of good in one way but bad in another when you're trying to convince people that you're critically ill.

When I spoke with him, he asked some questions that I had a hard time answering/explaining. Without going in to detail, I think I accidentally undermined his diagnosis. I kept freezing cause of my fear and some of my questions went unanswered or got filled in by mother who was supposed to be there for moral support.

One thing he said, (that's been haunting me) was, "Blocked bowel mainly consists of, lots of pain and no movements." Which I had a lot of on Sat - Tuesday and yet, I haven't had since Tuesday... And it also didn't help when I told him my condition and his first question was, "So, what do you want me to do?" -.-;
Aside from that he felt my stomach and it didn't hurt when he pressed on it but it sure as hell did later. I should have made him do it while I was standing up.

However, at least I'm getting tested. The blood tests on Monday are gonna be "fun." XD;;;

There is some good news...

He said that after I get these tests done, he's going to refer me to a specialist. I'm kinda happy about that. I need one, I've been needing one for years and even though Dr. Vozis has all my history, she's a common practitioner and she has a tendency to "pass the buck" with me. The only advantage to having her is the ability to have tests done same day, same place.

I felt great after going to the doctors office and ya know, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Perhaps that's because I knew he couldn't do much to me with the lack of equipment they have. I even ate some more solid food for the first time in weeks... which didn't sit well with me at first. Probably because I gorged... I was starving but we'll see how much pain it causes me later down the line.

Also, Wayne found my skull ring! :D Bonus!

I'm sick... real sick

Tue, 23 Jun 2009 16:43:18 GMT

Just wanted to post a ~~quick~~ update on how I'm doing, since it's been a while...

Lately I've been feeling like shit... Odd choice of words concerning my condition. I won't lie to you, I've always had digestive problems, born with a shotty system from the start... but nothing like this has ever happened before. Lately I've been having a problem with... going. On and off over the past couple of weeks. Now this is kinda the norm but it's been getting really scary. Before my body would flush and that would be that but now it can't do it without... aid and sometimes, it tries it's damnedest but to no avail and quite recently; I've been getting a weird, tugging feeling, in the corner of my colon, on the left side.

Through all of last night, it's been tugging at me and this morning, it started on the right and it feels like... a multi-car pileup a top a rickety old bridge comes close...

Now I haven't puked or anything like that and I did go a bit last night but I'm feeling worse by the minute. I'm hot, sweaty, I can't warm up when I'm cold and I can't cool down when I'm hot. I'm gassy, my bowels are squeezing-tugging up down and sideways and my stomach is making sounds one usually hears when exorcising the dead, from the living.

Needless to say, I'm terrified. I haven't been this scared since the whole gallbladder incident 2 years ago... which I never really took care of the first time round. STUPID I KNOW! But hey if it wasn't for the fucking tech labs jerking me around the way they did, I would've taken care of it... of course, if I had kept up with my ID's, that could've fixed everything too...

AUGH! I hate this! I hate the system, the people I have to deal with, myself, EVERYTHING! I hate it with every fiber of my dysfunctional being and as if having all this hell hit me all at once wasn't bad enough; I just got off the phone with the snooty as hell receptionist at this new doctor who's a hell of a lot closer than my old one is. Apparently she has openings for next week and in the case that I'm "not feeling well" I should go to my previous doctor and like a putz, I just rolled over and said, "Oh... well... maybe I'll go do that then..."

*HEADDESK* What is it about the phone that makes me so god damn polite?! So now I'm screwed. The snooty little bitch had a good chortle at my expense, I look like an idiot and if I call her back and say the things I want to say, I'll have the cops in front of my door by the time I get dressed. T_T I miss the days when all it took was a good threat and you got whatever you wanted.

Yeah sure, it may not be the most "evolved" thing to do but damn it! Right now, all my instincts are saying, "You are critically ill. We can no longer function. Find. Mechanic." and all the mechanics are insensitive, immoral, legalized sadists that think that I'm just being a baby.

People. I've been tortured all my life by these bastards. All of them, (with the exception of one) has poked, prodded and INVADED my physical being, against my will, with all whole assortment of objects, with no regard for my mental well being and I'm just supposed to be fine with that? "So what if we have to mentally scar you with our vast array of torture devices that are going to hurt, a lot? As long as you get better, who cares?!" e_e Oh to be a fly on the wall when time comes their next rectal exam.

There is some good news however... Mother found a brand, spankin' new clinic that's just a couple blocks away from that new doc I wanted to see. Funnily enough, it's in the same place Dr. Stein and Dr. "Personality" used to work. Something tells me however, that I'm going to go to the hospital, regardless of their prognosis.

Anyways kids. I'm going to try and lie down, and get some rest before heading over there. I've been up all night because of this.

Heeyyy! Happy Victoria Day Canada!

Tue, 19 May 2009 00:46:35 GMT

Yeah I know, could I post this at a more absurd time? Most likely all Ontarians are heading down to the beach by now or at least setting up to blow shit up in their backyards. Lazy bastards.

Anyway, I just wanted to wish all my Canadian friends "Happy Victoria Day!" I hope you're having a blast, freezing your genitals off down by the water, while getting piss drunk, running around, starting fires and adding more pollutants to the atmosphere, all for the sake of a Queen we stuck it to about TWO HUNDRED years ago...

Have Fun! :D

Miss me?... Didn't think so...

Mon, 11 May 2009 19:00:11 GMT

Been a while, hasn't it gang? Well I'm not dead... just... preoccupied.

I've done quite a few things over the past month and a bit. (Sadly, none of them really matter.)

Shit I've been doing/gotten in to:

I got back in to Subeta during the last two weeks of April. For some reason, it's become easier now that my GA has expired and I can only do 20 - 30 quests a day [depending on the quest,] instead of 30-40. Sure, I may not be able to adopt any more pets but it's not necessary for me to either. I find adopting pets on there only works if you plan to RP them or come up with their own unique personalities for their profiles.

I've teamed up with an new yet old friend of mine and have gotten to work on a Lizard based breedables idea, for Gaia. She's the artist, Lindsay is the guest artist and I'm the writer... And as the writer, I'm in trouble.

I managed to come up with the characters, species ideas/concepts, layout, etc but I haven't written jack shit about the story or anything aside since then. It's been two weeks and I think she's going to be expecting results soon. @.@

We only met again, for the first time in three years, last month and on that same day, I started brainstorming this idea with her. We got really excited and inspired, something neither of us have felt in a long time. We were literally shaking with excitement but I think we bit off more than we could chew.

Or I did... I think it was me. I haven't really written anything story grade in months. (Back when I used to write about my nightmares.) I kind of gave up on that when they started becoming an every day thing. I also fell prey to my insecurities about my writing style. I mean, LOOK at it. Look at how I use the same phrases, sayings and words... I'm not even sure about my punctuation anymore.

Am I using too much/too little? Am I using this character right? How can I continue with the next paragraph without using "and", "as well" or "also"?

It's these kinds of questions that made me give up writing but you know, I really shouldn't dwell on them. I just need to get started... Tomorrow. XD

Quite recently I've fallen in love with the Ultimate X-Men story arc. [As well and thanks to Wolverine & the X-men.] Yeah I know. I'm the last to the party and everyone's left already but I did make an appearance when it was gettin' started. Back in '01, I read the first couple of issues/looked at snippets and hated it all due to the short Wolverine/Jean ship. I was crazy for Wolvie back then and quite possessive (XD) but I'm glad that I dropped it when I did. All these cliff hangers would have killed me off years ago. XD Then I would never know how it ends...

Which, hasn't turned out to be all that comforting either... For you see, it's the ending that's got me in to a huge funk right now. (Hence my mood.) I downloaded and started reading this comic two- now three days ago and now that it's all over [with the exception of Requiem coming out this July], I- I feel like I've just broken up with a lover...
I KNOW! It's completely stupid! It's just a comic and the characters aren't real; none of it is real but I just fell in love with every aspect of it.

And... even though you'll laugh at this, the one I'm going to miss most is Toad...

Toad has been one of my more favorite characters since X-Men: Evolution - (even though that show sucked eggs and he was butt fuck hideous) - and this version [as well as the Wolverine&TXM version] has rekindled my obsession with the character. Don't ask me why I love Toad, it's a bit of a mystery, even to myself. In the TV series, he's a total dork; a real "eye-roller" when it comes to being a goof but he makes me laugh and maybe it's my obsession with technicolor-skinned creatures talking but I think he's rather hot.

His personality couldn't be anymore different for the comic version though. He's a hell of a lot more talented, intelligent, confident and he's actually a bit of a sweet heart... Even though we hardly get to see/hear from him throughout the entire series. I think he appears in... six issues at the most and has dialog/a line in only three of them.* They never illustrated the connection he made with Cyclops or why they became friends which, sort of bothers me. One would think it would be of some importance to the story line.

* - Correction, he appears in at least 10 issues. He's in at least 4 more issues near the end and has some rather meaningful dialog, albeit a little fragmented.

I mean, all we get to see of Genosha/the savage lands is during a conversation between Magneto and Scott then in the next issue, he [Magneto] takes the sentinels and ravages the US but fails due to Scott persuading Pietro to grab Magneto's Helmet. After his defeat, there's an issue where Charles is writing an article for a magazine and mentions over hearing Cyclops talking to Toad, on the phone, about how Storm set off a... "Disturbance" in Bobby's [Iceman's] colon. We see two panels of them shootin' the shit and that's it...

What the fuck marvel? I know we love to assume that a month in the comic world happens while we wait a month for the next issue but when a minor character makes that much of a connection with a MAJOR character, I expect to see some story behind that! Especially since he later becomes a fucking member of the X-men...

Oh god... I've finally done it. I've become one those Gambit-rabid fan-girls only with Toad... Damn my love for animals and men! DAMN THEM! Oh, btw, for those who don't know; Gambit only shows up for 3 issues and dies LONG before the end. Relevance? He's even more minor than TOAD and yet he's got all the fan girls.

Edit: The following contains spoilers to the end of Ultimate X-Men.

Well I've read the remaining six issues [94-100, 9 if you include the first three Ultimatums] in dread. Good God... Am I the only one who would have been happy if it just ended with #93? How can they make such a sad end to this series? Trying to get over the depression, I went back to the beginning to collect pics of Toad and Holy-fucking-hell! I almost died from the culture shock! I know I read the entire beginning just two days ago but it seems like a millennia ago now. It's hard to believe they got to where they are now from those humble beginnings...

However, I'm glad they brought the attention back round to Toad for the ending. There were just some sticky bits I didn't get... Like during this fight scene for instance: Toad and this girl, Flare(?) (who I keep confusing for Phoenix) are trapped by humans wearing Sentinel Armor, [out for blood after a flood, no foolin'] and it looks like they're all doing great but then, for no reason, Toad gets shot in the back while simultaneously getting knocked in to/catching Flare, and ends up unconscious under her, then the cavalry arrives, (instantly killing the humans w/no transition) and they're [Toad/Flare] both up, fine and dandy... WTF?

I also wish they didn't fragment the story across SIX different comics. I had to go download some of the [other] Ultimatums to get the fucking story straight but even now, I'm still missing bits.

For instance, in Ult X-men #97, Quick Silver [who's been pretty much missing/out of the story line since Laurna was caged with Magneto-and I'm only assuming it's him. His costume has changed but he has white hair and refers to "my father"] is talking to Xavier's Ex-wife who failed to protect the Banshee drug that gave people mutant powers...

And apparently, he died... along with his sister. Seriously! Who, what, where, when and why?!

The Positive and the Negative:

I fixed my diet, then ruined it.
I fixed my sleep schedule then ruined it about six times over.
I've been playing a lot of new games but I've also been staying up for 24hrs at a time, per day, for the past two weeks, to do so.
I've been obsessed with Zelda: Twilight Princess but I stopped playing about half way through the game, last month. (Gotta get back to playing it.)
I've been craving and eating new foods lately but it's mostly junk.
I've been thinking about making LJ icons again and getting started DA Stamps but the idea of adding text puts me right off the idea.

Things I've fallen out of:

I haven't pixeled anything for months. I've got to get back in to that.

Facebook is pretty much dead to me. As well as Moshi Monsters. It's a cutesy, flash game with cuddly monsters that used to be 100% free but now, requires money in order to get the most out of it. I bet my two monsters have died from the lack of care by now...

Speakin' of... I've kind of fallen out with Dragon Adopters. I love the site and the dragons but the amount of spamming I gotta do in order for the pets to level, got old about a month after I joined. However, I don't plan on quitting anytime soon.

But Click-to-Level Adoptable pet sites have officially fallen off my list of "favorite internet pastimes". Pokeplushies, Valenth, DNA Adopts, DragCave, ChickenNoodle, and any of their numerous clones can go to hell, for all I care. It's just too much work for me. I play these games to relax. Not to add yet another chore to my list.
And about PokePlushies...I'll be erasing all the pokeplushie adopts from my page once I trade all the ones I can to my friend Jolene who, for some reason, is still obsessed with it even though it's admin is shit and their user base has died.

Online forums like Gaia, Zantarni and Roliana can go to hell. Even though I'm kind of back in to Gaia for the breedables project; the rest are pretty much dead. I haven't even been to some of the more obscure yet moderately famous Gaia Clones like, Menewsha in six months.

And that's pretty much it. For those who clicked on the cuts, sorry for the long read and for those that didn't, WHY HAVEN'T YOU?! XD

5 Things I would like to do before I die...

Sun, 19 Apr 2009 05:55:44 GMT

5. Get in to animation, videogames and/or movies and make one of my dreams come true. (Not as the star but as the writer/director.)

4. Work as a gate/grounds keeper for a graveyard.

3. Learn German and take a tour of Europe.

2. Start an "Cat Protection" organization for neglected cats. (Both physically, emotionally and mentally.)

1. Fuck. Seriously... If all else fails, I'd like to be able to do this before I croak!
Yes I am a virgin.
No, I've had plenty of chances.
Why? Because pregnancy scares the FUCK right out of me. Literally. XD

DIGITAL STRIP SEARCH!

Mon, 13 Apr 2009 20:43:56 GMT

Please watch this video!! It is deadly serious; Affecting our rights to privacy both online and OFFLINE. If this law is allowed to pass, your cell phones, mp3 players and personal computers could be searched through, for no reason and if even one "illegal" media file is found, you will be grossly fined, criminally charged and have your personal files/devices deleted or DESTROYED. Without so much as a warrant or reason.

In addition, these same people are trying to make it impossible for anyone to challenge their government, regardless of the charge brought to the courts. Please, if you value any freedom you have left, please watch these two videos, sign their petitions and if those petitions don't allow you to sign due to where you live, feel free to demand that they change that!

We need a global response to what Obama is doing. He needs to know what the world thinks of him and his obscene policies.